It was...and ODD weekend. I did my amazing 32KM run. it was fantastic...but I'm totally terry-foxing it up today though...serioulsy...I HURT SO BAD!
that was fun, and eventful! Then I met up with some of my BEST friends from High school for a dinner (well done Andrew and Andrea!) there was a pretty good turn out and YUM....bugers! Tommy burger...anybody been there? sort of a neat concept...and the garlic fries are UNREAL!
Then Nat and Amanda, Saren Amy and Joe (my free spirit, rock climbing friend!) went to a BIG party out at a big house in the country. it was really fun, I guess...
.UNTIL.
.YOU .GUESSED .IT
more car problems.
Like I said, Mr C popped over to Calgary for a visit, I'll just say it didn't go well. I'm a habitual idiot. and well, I guess all that's left to say is that things probably turned out the way they should. but it still left me feeling really quite empty and sad, I have so many flaws, can I find someone who loves them? I thought I had...a couple times this year...whoa, maybe I really am a fool.
they say you only find true love once, and some say if its meant to be it will happen. but how could something that was so close to perfect turn out to be so wrong? SO SO SO wrong. I got left alot weaker than when I was found early this summer. I'm shook and stunned. summer really is over I guess. the love, laughter, warm weather, fights, kisses, randomness, tears, hope, warm drinks on a cool porch, the late nights and lazy days, texting and flirting, inside jokes and nicknames. the warmth of the sun is leaving, and so is the warmth in my heart. haha! sorry, I know how that sounds...I've been writing music lately haha...im a little poetic. one of my newer ones goes like this
I said I'm never gonna do this again
I'm never gonna leave my heart in someone elses hands
I'm never gonna, never gonna let em in
again.
and I feel like there's a mountain on me
and I know that it wont move, till I do
and I know that you'd be lying to me, telling me
that you want me like I
I want you....
okay, I'm almost done...this post is HUGE!
were booking the flights to Dublin this week...and well, I'm thinking about staying in Europe for at least a couple of weeks...I'm there right? Ive been saving to travel...why not put some more location notches up there right? I'm going to do a post about my trip soon. my plans currently...sometimes I get so nervous to go be by myself. but Joe said something really great to me this weekend...Rach, travelling by yourself teaches you more about yourself than anyone could ever teach you. - hes so right. I thought all this time, I could find myself with other people...but really, after fights, and let downs, and jerks, and loss... all it comes down to
is .me.
.X.X.
Rach
2 comments:
rachel dont give up! there must be an AMAZING guy waiting for you, for all these losers to pass you by!
Rachel! I love reading your blog. you are so upbeat and positive about running and you know that life has it's ups and downs. So first things first, those pictures of you are beautiful. Girl you look so dang skinny! Must be all the running. And secondly, that story of Luis totally brought tears to my eyes. I remember when he died. What a sweetie pie. I'm so glad he is where he is now. And speaking of Ecuador, I found my "Ecuador CD" the other day and popped it in in the car and your song that you wrote (Thanks for opening your heart, to the children....) Oh I love it. I totally started balling while driving. I miss it there so much. I want to go back so badly.
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