.set.in.wood.sarah.37.BOOBS!.

this feels like a million years ago...but I just wanted a little self-indulgence here for a second...its my blog right?

S+R... this was the desk that sat in Seth's room in the shoddy little apartment in good old winerhaven apartment complex, in Orem Utah. this is where we fell in love. we met at a college dance, and fell in quick, amazing love.

the Summer we moved out...going over a year strong into our relationship, we carved our initials into that little desk and promised to be in love forever....funny huh? I was thinking about it recently... I loved him. I gave him everything I had...I've never laughed so hard, or cried so hard, or loved so much, or worked so hard for something in my life....and I'm scared I never will again. is that crazy? everyone I talk to is like...Rach, you never forget your first love...but...what if it starts interfering with your progression in life? I cant take anyone seriously...I cant honestly say

"yes. I'm willing to give you everything I have"

because all I'll end up saying in my head is

"yeah RIGHT...just like I did with Seth, and all it got me was totally...totally lost."

I GREW UP with Sether. take that as you will. we helped each other learn about...ourselves. we learned that love DOESN'T CONQUER ALL... Seth was there. he pulled me out of my darkest moments and made me believe that love conquers all. that we could do it...but no. love definitely doesn't conquer all...and now I dont know if i can ever beleive it again. I walk around with a blank face, wearing a necklace that he gave me that simply says....for my best friend. he still has my engagement ring, we promised to meet in a year and he would give it back so that I could just have it... to show how far we came, and still loved eachother.

love doesnt conquer all.

okay. vent over.

.ITS.BEEN.A.WHILE!.

LETS START WITH THE WEEKEND!

On Thursday I went to Edmonton to see SAR! it was SO FUN. we went shopping, met with one of her prof's and had an interesting Church discussion. here are some pictures. it was a really fun weekend. like i said before, I don't see a lot of Sarah lately...shes a busy, successful girl, and I envy her a lot for that. she has an awesome hubby and a cute, perfect life! we always used to tease her because she doesn't look a lot like the rest of the girls in our family. we used to made up stories about how she got switched int he hospital. what do you think? do we look the same?

I think I look more like THIS GUY! ha ha...

ON.SATURDAY.I.RAN.37.KILOMETERS!

I'm going to be prideful for a second. I didn't think I would be able to do it! EXCPECIALLY because I have been dealing with so many injuries...AND...GET THIS....I totally did it MUSIC FREE. it was KILLER. I haven't been able to find my i-pod lately...so being the lazy bones I am...I just run without. GAH...but that one got a little boring after 3 and a half hours.

I ran all over the paths in Edmonton. on one of the paths someone wrote on the sidewalk

.pain.is.just.fear.leaving.the.body - It made me feel a little hard core...I WAS hurting! ha ha.

at 35 km I had no idea where I was. on .some. path by .some. river in Edmonton, so I asked someone where to go..."just go up those stairs and it takes you to a main road"

sweet...he failed to tell me that at the top of those stairs was a 1KM hill STRAIGHT UP. ha ha I was just about ready to collapse...forget running a hill! my finished time was 3:33. nice and round. If i don't step it up for Dublin, I might not get in under 4...I HAVE TO! training resumes this week. but let me tell you, I.COULD.BARELY.WALK. - spent most of the afternoon icing my knee's while I watched conference.

I left on Saturday night, because, bright and early .SUNDAY.MORNING.

THE CIBC RUN FOR A CURE!

we raised well over 1000$ for the event! thank you so much to everyone who donated. it was really special. I was in a lot of pain on Sunday morning when I got up to head to the race with Natalie...but when I got there, I saw how happy and excited everyone was to be there, fighting for family members and friends...and I didn't feel so bad. Natalie and I jogged, and cried, and laughed, and had the BEST TIME. the event was a huge success.

this is right after we finished. tears in our eyes.


this is who we ran for. ALL THE BOOBIES .EVERYWHERE!.

Some people wrote things like...Auntie Sam...I miss you. and some just wrote mom, or, my beautiful wife, while his wife stood beside him, with a bandanna around her head to hide the baldness. there was a wall of hope - people could take a little pink piece of paper and write whatever they wanted on it...and then put it on this wall....there were hundreds of posts, saying all sorts of things. on a little pink piece of paper I simply put.

I'm running for OUR future.

I love the picture right below here. I ran for Natalie, my mom, my sisters, my aunties, the stranger on the train...anyone who I know who could be affected my breast cancer. its a scary thing to think about, but this gave me hope for my fear.

one more time.... .THANKS.TO.EVERYONE.WHO.HELPED.OUT!.

hey DEBBIE.....

.BOOBS.

I'm headed rock climbing with .the.free.spirit. tonight. he was amazing this weekend. he came to the run and took pictures for us. he is amazing to me....I respect him so much for what he does in his life, everything he accomplishes and the trials he pushes thru with a good attitude. I'm going to miss him A.LOT.

that's all for now, folks, sorry...I always wait till the middle of the week to do these MASSIVE posts.

.X.X. - (and thoughtful)

emo.R.